part one. Becoming One of Them -- Paid to Play in the Strike Force -- How It All Began -- The Initial Pickton Information -- A Letter to Anderson -- Working with Bill Hiscox -- Watching Our Investigation Stall -- The Missing Women -- A Letter to Sarah de Vries -- Looking for Links -- Project Amelia (the Missing Persons Review Team) -- Other Cases, Other Avenues -- A Letter to Janet Henry -- The Families -- A Letter to Marnie Frey -- The Second Pickton Tip -- Another Opportunity with Lynn Ellingsen -- Dead in the Water -- Finding Four Women -- Investigating Person of Interest (POI) 390 -- Salvaging Project Amelia -- The Creation of Project Evenhanded -- Post-February 5, 2002 -- A Letter to Sereena Abotsway -- Interrogating Robert Pickton -- Part two. Soldiering On -- Salvaging a Career -- The Missing Women Commission of Inquiry -- Defending My Writing -- Testifying for the Last Time -- Losing My Grip, Again -- Shaking Hands with My Own Devil -- Doing the Hard Work.